I'm Tired

I don't do well when I'm tired. I'm also not one to "burn the midnight oil." However, since Cal has been sleeping through the night, I have been staying up late.. too late. And this last week was a duzie (I don't know how to spell that, and apparently, neither does spellcheck). Anyway, I was a horrible mother today. Barely any playing, lots of "looks" to Lacey trying to communicate to her to cut it out (in my defense, however, she was a stinker), no book reading, and the list goes on. I'm sitting here (at 1130, of course) trying to figure out how moms that stay up late do it! I guess maybe coffee.. That's gotta be it.. I just need my sleep. My husband and I were talking about it the other night - I used to sleep.. I mean SLEEP! I just love a good nap! A good, LONG nap (we're talking 3hrs!). And now - no naps, no sleeping in to catch up (as if I could do that anyway). I just "wake up" now which is really annoying! It must just be that I'm getting older.. And that I always have a list of things to do - Like this blog! I've been wanting to journal. I used to do it when I was in high school, and I just love going back and reading different parts! I've tried it several times only to write like a page or two and forget about it. So this is my attempt to journal :) Today I was tired.. I was absolutely no fun to my dear, sweet children.. I made lunch meat sandwiches for dinner, and am topping it off by staying up way too late again! OK.. I'm going to bed.. To rest my head, so I won't be dead (tomorrow :) ) see.. tired.

I don't care..

Are you serious?? You don't CARE!? Is this my darling 2yr old saying this? Where did she get it from?? Where did she hear it? What kind of mom am I apparently teaching my daughter to say that sort of thing? And maybe a better question is, "how do I get her to stop?" This has now been going on for several days, and first I tried saying, "honey, that's not very nice, WE don't say that." Well, apparently WE do and that just egged her on. Then my mom suggested just saying, "we care!" Well, she thought about it, and just likes "I don't care" better. So now I'm trying a new offensive play.. I think it's the "don't" word that is attractive, so I'm now working with, "I don't know!" So, we'll see how it goes.. :) The underlying issue for me, however, is that I want my children to care! I want them to be compassionate and caring and loving! I know that kids at her age latch on to words/phrases they think are "cool" in their little minds.. I've heard my other friends talking about their kids saying "stupid" or "dumb" and to tell you the truth, I'm not sure which one is worse! Man! kids are so hard.. You pour so much energy into them and want them to be perfect, loving, angels (yes, that's what I want!) And I guess that is where my praying for wisdom comes in yet again.. And I am so very thankful that I have someone loving, caring and compassionate listening to me!